The First Day

First day 25th july- classes were scheduled to start frm 26th july n as so we reached d campus on 25th july at about 11 am. Dis tym my mom also came along with us. She wanted 2 see my cllge once.

All frst yrs got rooms in hostel no 2. My mom helped me in arranging my room as i was going to live first tym without my parents. Den i met my room mate after about one hour. On looking on my room mate's face for the frst tym, i understood dat i m gonna share my room with a 9 pointer. He gave a polite smile when he saw me.....actually i have a vry vry innocent face n nobody cn even thnk whats goin on in my mind. Hours passed by n den at ab8 4 o clock my parents left me n went back. I felt bad for 10 seconds n then i ws feelin like a freebird under no supervision. I immediately went 2 my room n dug out a packet of goldflake kings frm my certificate files inside my bag n lit it n went 2 d bathroom 2 smoke. Few seconds passed by n then thr was a knock at my rooms door. I opened d door n my studious rmmate was standin before me with a bunch of books bt dis tym he'd another facial expression..he was shocked 2 see me smoking...he didnt expect dat frm my innocent face although 90% of my innocence expression was vanished after departure of my parents. After dat he alarmed me not to smoke in room as it can be dangerous because in first yr, rooms get checked vry frequently. He got all these informations frm his seniors. At about 7.45 pm, along with my childhood frnd went for dinner n came back to our respective rooms. I was all alone in my room n then thoughts started flowing into my mind. I thought dat i used 2 live a luxurious life at home previously n now i m struck here between these mountains. I didnot lit any cigrette later dat nite due to fear of room checking n attendance. Dat nite 1 slept at 9.30 pm like my roommate.

26th july (THE DAY)- I wokeup at 7.15 n went for breakfast at around 7.45 am. I had my breakfast n den got ready for cllge. I wore a formal shirt, formal pant, black shoes n black belt. I saw myslf in mirror n felt like an unkle. At that time i weighed around 88 kgs. I went 2 d classroom n silently sat on d last bench. I did all classes with sincerity n came back 2 my room. I entered my room n d frst thing i saw ws my rmmate with his eme copy on his bed. Dis made me feel depressed as i didnt made any frnds dat day n nw i had no wrk for my whole evening. I took my packet of cigrette n went 2 my hostel's roof. Later den i had my dinner n went asleep.

Next day i woke up at 7 am n went for brkfast at 7.30 am. I ate my food n den thought of makin frns on dat day in class. Again i entered d class n sat on d last bench searching for smone intresting 2 talk with. As i started observing, i saw dat there were student groups already in d class. Different state students were not at all intrested to talk 2 each other. I found some guys of my state but denied frndshp becoz i didnt found dem intresting. They were busy bullying others n commenting on each single person dey see. That day also i didnot made any frnd n returned 2 my hostel, had my dinner n slept.